threshold

I have this fear I need to get over. I can't stand stepping on the cracks and space between pavement or sidewalks. I hate the raised white lines on cross walks. I don't hate the products themselves, I just hate how they make me feel. I feel uneasy, my body feels off balance. but the strongest feeling I have, is the feeling of not being in the right place, like i have crossed over into another place when the top of my foot hits the next block of sidewalk. i feel like I have teleported, (my moved this time and space) to get to another place. I don't know what that place is but I know its different, and I think differently, as a result of touching the periphery of that space. It is feeling haunting me every time I walk on one. So I consciously avoid them. the feeling is so powerful I need to remove it but as i write this I am also intrigued by it.